relationship

suddenly, while I was working at my girlfriend's place, I asked myself what am I doing this for. I felt a lack in commitment.
late in the evening we had a conversation, we saw that she is holding back 'because there's always the possibility of you leaving me alone". I said I reckon this is for the rest of my life, so we aren't equally standing in this.
During the next day, while she was gone for work, I felt some anger, and I said to myself this cannot go on as it is. I either quit or I walk this point.
When she had returned home we had a conversation about herself, she said I want to be satisfied with myself. I pointed out that one can be satisfied with one's expression but not with oneself, because self is self. She said she doubted even herself.
I said you need to create a stable self then. I said, you speak a lot in funny voices lately. When you do so, you abdicate your self to the mind. You need to stop it because when you need to be yourself in a moment, you'll have difficulties finding yourself.
I'm satisfied with my self application here, lol