What the News Reveals about us: We’re Missing from Our own Equation

What the News Reveals about us: We’re Missing from Our own Equation

self-forgiveness on energy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create energy by 'kicking' my body.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to like to live in and as energy. 

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to stop myself from existing in and as energy.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that life=energy.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't move if I don't create energy.

I move myself
I take action
I write
I speak up
I direct

discussion with my son

The discussion with my son was quite interesting. 

We started of with him stating that he wanted a platform to speak up against nuclear energy. I showed him different ways to create such a platform, through politics, or internet media, he understood. I said, but you don't do it. He said, if I know how to, I do it. I said, no because you have never developed yourself to be able to move yourself, you were raised and educated to become a follower. So you are unable to move yourself to do such a thing.

I said, you might get followers when you speak up, but when you would stop, the followers would stop as well, because they are followers. Not able to move themselves. I pointed out that that's why Desteni offers education, to change self to become a leader. he asked what the Desteni education entails and I explained. So cool.

energy, education, girlfriend

energy running through my body is quite annoying. I used to like it but this has changed. 

I noticed that I actually kick my body to produce the energy. 

Then the energy is making it difficult to self-direct. It's like this thick, slowly moving substance. 

Another thing that came forth in a discussion with my son, that we are raised to become followers. Followers of parent's direction, teacher's, bosses', policemen's, law's, brands', fashion's, media's, religion's direction and what not. So, it takes time to change self to be able to self-direct. Self-forgiveness is the tool to establish a self to be able to self-direct.

In a discussion with my girlfriend I wasn't able to clearly state: I shave my head because I stand for life in oneness and equality. She sticks to her opinion that it's a shame that I shave my head because I had such nice curls, it made me a nice person. And she sometimes feels scared by my bald head. 

I said hair is used for personality, beauty, sexual attraction. I stop this. She was joking: why do I have sex with you then? I said, well you don't have sex with my hair. lol

In another discussion I said: we are a team. She said, what do you mean, a team? I said, having fun, enjoying and working on stuff that needs to be done. She agreed!

feelings and their creation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ff3CqHnw9ec&fmt=18

this morning she called me while driving to work. She referred to the mail i sent and she said: we have discussed the point and I told my perspective and you told yours. I said: So we cannot speak any further on the matter? She said I want you to respect me in my attitude, caused of irritation I feel sometimes because of you.
I said, often times you were in this fridge state when coming home from work, it had nothing to do with me and yet you confronted me with your state as the attitude you had towards me. Imagine if I were this to you.
Then I heard the tears come, but she arrived at work and therefor she didn't want to cry. We said bye in a really cool way.