energy, education, girlfriend

energy running through my body is quite annoying. I used to like it but this has changed. 

I noticed that I actually kick my body to produce the energy. 

Then the energy is making it difficult to self-direct. It's like this thick, slowly moving substance. 

Another thing that came forth in a discussion with my son, that we are raised to become followers. Followers of parent's direction, teacher's, bosses', policemen's, law's, brands', fashion's, media's, religion's direction and what not. So, it takes time to change self to be able to self-direct. Self-forgiveness is the tool to establish a self to be able to self-direct.

In a discussion with my girlfriend I wasn't able to clearly state: I shave my head because I stand for life in oneness and equality. She sticks to her opinion that it's a shame that I shave my head because I had such nice curls, it made me a nice person. And she sometimes feels scared by my bald head. 

I said hair is used for personality, beauty, sexual attraction. I stop this. She was joking: why do I have sex with you then? I said, well you don't have sex with my hair. lol

In another discussion I said: we are a team. She said, what do you mean, a team? I said, having fun, enjoying and working on stuff that needs to be done. She agreed!