two cats are gone

today I saw the owner of the cats coming home. He carried two bins for cats. I realized he was going to take the cats to his girlfriend's house, where he lives shortly.

I walked over to tell him that I wouldn't mind to keep the small red/white cat, who enjoys staying with me. he said he wanted to keep the two cats together so they can support each other in the new environment. 

He said if it doesn't work for the red one, he'll bring her to me. Or do I want to own both cats? I said no, that's too much. 

I was a bit sad the rest of the day and still am.

Also sad is, my girlfriend not responding to my mail and my call. We had two phone calls last week in which it became clear that she doesn't understand what I am doing Desteni wise, and that she doesn't have a clue what Desteni is about.

Later on however she said it had been a "confusion of words". 

I emailed: it wasn't a confusion, I saw clearly how we were discussing and I was able to express myself exactly.

No response what so ever. Yet. Maybe it takes a lot of time for her...

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel sad about the departure of the cats.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel sad about my girlfriend not returning my mail/call

I notice that the point in myself repeatedly activates where in i judge myself: I did something wrong because I feel sad now. I stop it every time.

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