update and possession

I have my body as an empty space, in which it is silent. Anything that moves in there just like that, I delete, I forgive myself. Like memories, thoughts, movement of energy like feelings/emotions/anxiety. Breath is here as my self. 

I was at the dentist, A tooth had broken. While she was busy building a new tooth on the remains I found a point connected. I saw a woman’s lips coming close to kiss me, lipsticked in pink. I was in a memory, as a child I experienced this and I hed felt that I wanted to stand up against such lips, but I didn’t and I suppressed myself. I stood as the point and I forgave myself. 

Another point connected to this tooth was me offering my jaw for a blow from a fist. In an effort to tempt someone to act in this way, so it would then prove him violent and guilty of violence, so he would know he is wrong and that makes me right. A strange way to ‘save myself’. lol

This weekend my girlfriend thanked me for my patience. We are quit comfortable. 

I looked after her dog and the two horses when she was gone and in the evening I had a chat on private forum, just around the time they normally go in the stables. After a while the dog informed wether I hadn’t forgotten about the horses. I walked over to the window to listen if they were upset, running along the fence, nothing. I ‘told’ them to enjoy being out late. The dog was satisfied.

Lady friend demon possession.

I am visiting her and we were at the dinner table and she made this sign of a cross across her chest as a christian symbol. I intended to say something but suddenly she said in a loud voice: “don’t cut yourself with that knife!” three times. I asked her what she had felt, she said irritation. I said it’s because of your religion. But she couldn’t put one and one together. Later in the evening I refered to the event and repeated what she had called out, she didn’t remember! She couldn’t believe that she had said it. So complete possession.