This morning I stretched myself in bed and BAM! a muscle in my left leg, the lower part, started aching like hell. I couldn’t move for a moment and I had to stay put. And in this moment a almost overwhelming shitty feeling spread throughout the upper part of my body. I felt quite helpless and when I looked I saw it is my accumulated worries about the future. And I realized that every time Desteni made a new move, I would have a worry that something bad might happen to us.
In the past days I had felt every now and then this emotion looming, I new I had to face it soon and here we had it in full force, it almost blew me away. I stopped myself from jumping out of bed to try and forget/ignore this nasty emotion asap, distracting myself with what ever I could find for that purpose. And after some time a stability emerged in the hell and my mind tried to convince me that I had been right in my frequent worries. I realized I couldn’t hold on to my worries any longer, although it felt I was entering nowhere land, because they were clearly energies, not self. Finally the leg calmed down and the nasty energetic charge was diminishing. I gave it some more time and carefully I got up.
In the past days I had felt every now and then this emotion looming, I new I had to face it soon and here we had it in full force, it almost blew me away. I stopped myself from jumping out of bed to try and forget/ignore this nasty emotion asap, distracting myself with what ever I could find for that purpose. And after some time a stability emerged in the hell and my mind tried to convince me that I had been right in my frequent worries. I realized I couldn’t hold on to my worries any longer, although it felt I was entering nowhere land, because they were clearly energies, not self. Finally the leg calmed down and the nasty energetic charge was diminishing. I gave it some more time and carefully I got up.
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