breathing

I went to bed to sleep, but once in bed I stayed very much awake instead and my mind presented 'interesting thoughts'. When I found myself thinking the thought I would stop and breathe, till the mind more or less gave up and my focus was breathing and I found self honesty and self forgiveness in it: When I breathed in I would see a self dishonesty, some aspect of personality, and breathing out I would forgive it. It was fascinating I continued and I was surprised to see so many different personality aspects, I saw them as images of people I had seen throughout my lifetime, although some I didn't remember having seen them, but then I realized I had had sex with different people and downloaded their information as well. Following a thought distracted me several times but just for several breathes and then I would return to this process.
I saw the breath would come to me to fill my lungs as pure, innocence, highlighting what I had accepted and allowed to exist in myself, and I saw that it was my choice/decision/responsibility what I would let the breath carry with it into the world, which quality/intention.
During the next day I tried to continue this but it was hard, chatting with my girlfriend, I was very busy in my mind, looking for conversation material. And later on in the day I found myself giving energy to several systems which I felt as sore spots in my back, so I had to deal with those.

So I can confirm what Bernard had said about the breath: breathing in; self honesty, breathing out; self forgiveness.  When I first heard this I thought it to be impossible to be aware in every single breath!