death announcements

My girlfriend was reading some announcements in the newspaper on the death of people, send in by the remaining family members. When reading these, one would expect the world te be heaven. Everyone who had died were 'loved' and we started joking by making up contrary goodbye messages for the dead: "finally he's gone", "we have been waiting too long", "never again", "we're happy and grateful to announce the death of ...". So we had a good laugh realizing the fucked upness of this kind of announcements.
Same goes obviously for births. Often people hang a colored paper words where it says: hurrah! a boy. Or Hurrah! a girl! Never do we read: O no! a boy! or, We'd rather had a girl!
I remember the time where my wife and I were preparing for the birth of our first child and all we saw were wonderful pictures and words of having a baby.
How did we get this crazy all together? Obviously it's all about image, keeping up appearances, and about sales. A beautiful dream sells.
So we have a fictional public world, where everything seems fine and lovely. Smiling faces everywhere, everyone happy with the stuff that's for sale. While in fact when taking a closer look, stuff isn't made to last, it's the less possible content for the highest possible price, more often produced by people who earn just enough to have a shitty life. When we meet out on the streets we smile to each other and we have a chat on the weather.

Self honesty is what we need, to educate our children, which we can only teach them when we are forgiving ourselves for all the fucked upness and deception and lies we're representing ourselves. To never again create a false world in spite of reality again.

Spiteful towards myself

I discovered little thoughts of spitefulness and neglect towards myself. Where I would diminish myself. I think that my existence is of no importance, that my actions don't really matter. And that my capabilities are useless. This is going on for some time, as an acceptance and allowance within myself. It affects my determination to work for the change we want to see on Earth.
The underlying emotion is that all is for nothing: we won't make it, we won't change. The brainwashed state of humanity is to strong. And I am not fit for the work that needs to be done.
Every time I forget something, or I type something wrong, I condemn myself for my limitedness as the system that I am. Or when I struggle to learn something new on the computer, or to learn how to make a mind construct in the DIP course.

I wasn't aware of this accumulating in myself, by giving a little confirmation to each thought that would come up indicating these type of failures. I need to watch closely what is moving in my mind and to breathe instead of confirming the thoughts. Sticking to my decision to never allow this again. Because the accumulated spitefulness bursted out in one moment when I acted out on the dog for spoiling something I had just finished cleaning. Where I was trying to smash the mirror of what I was doing myself: spoiling my own cleaning of my mind.

Will Olympic Games still exist in the Equal Money System?

Will Olympic Games still exist in the Equal Money System?

Games as competition to win won't exist. It doesn't support the equality principle, it supports the personality cult. Sports can exist, for showing to others your passion, as a gift to enjoy. There can exist a form of competition as in finding new ways of expressing a sport, but pure for the sake of enriching the sport and the expression of it. And none of this will be kept secret to have an advantage over others. It will be shared equally to share the joy.

Olympic Games might be called Olympic Sports, however the implications of setting up this event as all the facilities that are required might be seen as not what's best for all. When all resources and efforts for the event are in fact too harmful to life in general. 

Will cars produced be of the same model, same brand in the Equal Money System

What I see is that we will have only one brand: the Equality brand. It will offer the best cars we're able to produce. That means for instance that it will be long lasting and easy to maintain and repair. As many parts as possible will be re-useable, and the rest will be easy to dismantle and returned as resource material.

There could exist a form of competition between different factories to see which one can come up with the best solutions, technical/environmental/other, which will be shared equally, one brand would be most efficient and effective, and would depict the Equality principle nicely.

Inventions to make it even better will be decided on from a point of necessity and the harm it causes (in the physical world to living organisms) to implement the innovation. Retrieving resources from the Earth for instance may cause harm to bugs/animals living there.

There will be different models for different purposes. But not for personal taste. Everything will be aligned to the physical. So there will be cars to transport humans, to transport humans and goods like a pickup truck, for goods only, for any specific physical purpose we will make specific cars/vehicles, for instance for long or short distance rides. There might be a choice of chairs to accommodate the specs of one's body to the optimum, or a design that's easy adjustable for different body types. 

The cars will not be a personal possession, most likely cars will be available for communal usage. As this is more efficient. There might be cars for very long/short people. Though there might be people who like to have/share a specific vehicle for fun riding, then again will all points be taken in consideration if this isn't abusive towards other life forms.

Electricity as and of myself

since my discovery of the electrical currents in my chest which I separated myself from, hiding away in fear because of their strange feeling in my body, I forgave myself  for fearing and that opened up the possibility to stand one and equal as these currents, and I forgave myself for empowering the lines in my chest through electricity as and of myself, (not all of them yet,) and instead becoming one and equal as the physical.
I discovered more lines, two going up on the sides of my neck, I found that I believed that I needed these to keep myself strong and that I really couldn't do without them, two more going down from my eyes, related to severe anger out bursts, and more.

The Design of Autism

I remembered as a child I would occasionally have these strange energies running through my chest, like lines of electricity. I had no idea what it was that I experienced and in the end I developed fear to hide away in fear when these energies would appear.

I forgot about the energies and hiding in fear became normal. In time I forgot about/suppressed the fear and the only thing left was my body showing me by tightening my nose making the breath difficult that something was the matter.

So I'm watching in the moment that I feel these energies occurring, I stop myself from going into fear and quickly suppressing that. Breathing. I wonder how this will develop.

these points opened up:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to act from the starting point of the electrical currents I feel in my chest, instead of from self as self direction.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to initiate action to try and get away from the feeling of the electrical currents
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel excited by the electrical currents
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to enjoy this excitement
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to end up in stress/anxiety, following the electrical energy.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to burst out in anger/hatred from this electrical feeling
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel superpower from this electrical energy
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through my actions from the currents
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to leave the centre of myself in my chest to exist in and as a artificial state of energy
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to become irritated when my artificial existence is challenged, when I feel it has no solid foundation in and as myself
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use reasoning to support it
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use anger to try and defend it
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to try and end it by endless crying
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to try and forget about it by entertaining myself
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to try and make it real by believing it was God's reality/a higher state of being, believing it to be more important than the physical realm.