Job training

Today I was at a meeting, an introduction to a training to find a job. I didn’t ask for it, i am obliged to do it and if I don’t some of my social grant will be taken away or even stopped completely, so I am at the meeting under a death threat.
In the days before I had been looking forward to meet new people and to see what it was all about. The effect was however that I felt that I let myself be more absorbed by ‘the matrix’, to the extend where I considered giving in to everything the matrix has to offer in terms of entertainment and experiences.
To night I had seen the efforts of the mind as myself to keep myself occupied and then I decided enough is enough. I stop, I breathe. I direct myself.